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I think every woman should try cutting it short at some point. And I’ve loved having short hair and I’ve found myself caring and bothering with my hair so much more than I ever did with long hair, and of course I get gaydar-ed and less harassed by men these days. I have had a lovely romantic time with my steadily more experimental and crazy cut.
But I’m having a thing where I really really really wish I could have long hair again, and of course that’s impossible cos it would take about 3 years to get there and 2 of those years would be Awkward Hair Years. And I never have the patience to get through even the Mullethood, never mind the Awkward Ear Area stage, the Weird 90s Hairdo stage and then the Big Fuzzy I-Refuse-To-Obey Mess stage. And knowing me if I did somehow make it through I would be all, OH I MISS HAVING SHORT HAIR <3 and OH, NO ONE EVER REALISES I’M GAY ANYMORE (hah yeah right) and OH, I MISS BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS MY BOYISH SIDE MORE EASILY (this one is quite a big one - but at the moment I feel I struggle to express my femme side easily)
Basically…the only thing I can think of is to get a wig! A good wig, not a crappy plastic-y one. I couldn’t ever afford real hair ones (they’re like £400 :[) but there’s some pretty nice realistic ones for the £100 mark.
Reasons I’m thinking of wigging it out:
The only thing I’m worried about is, people already don’t seem to take my gender fluidity seriously, even my own gf makes out she likes it but then seems really off with me when I’m girly. And really happy when I go back into ‘boi’ mode. I spend more time looking andro than girly so everyone has a freak out when I’m on the girl side (which is weird considering I think I still act pretty girly even when I’m aesthetically andro). I think the long hair will just further stamp in the ‘she’s so fake’ impression of me people seem to get.
Blehhhhh I just want to be able to switch whenever I want and embrace everything. Maybe I’m just greedy. I just don’t see why I should choose or why I should be judged.